Chapter 218
Neil was, of course, a total control freak. I’ve always known that. But he couldn’t just run my life!
So, when he doesn’t love me, I should just stay away from him, and when he does, I should immediately play along?
“I thought you’ve changed.” I was really disappointed. “But it turns out, my resentment towards you and my suffering mean less to you than your control freak tendencies”
Neil’s eyes flickered, but he didn’t say anything.
What a joke. With all the chaos at home, he was still trying to push me around.
“I won’t back down, Neil. If you think I don’t have it bad enough, feel free to keep tormenting me. For instance, you could’ve refused to help me with the SaintlyBio Corporation mess and left me to deal with it myself. That should satisfy your sick mind.” I looked up, speaking calmly.
Neil gritted his teeth, “Sick mind? Is my inability to let you go also a sign of my sick mind?”
“But I’ve let you go. I’m not your property, you can’t just have me when you want me and discard me when you don’t. Neil, can you respect me a little? Is it because I used to be blindly infatuated with you, so you’re used to seeing me without any dignity?” I asked, feeling a bit bitter.
Once, I was like a satellite, revolving around Neil on the orbit he set, with no sense of self.
But that was by choice. I didn’t blame anyone.
Neil seemed frustrated by my words. He looked down at my hand and said. “Let go. We shouldn’t be talking through a door,”
I didn’t want him to force me to let go, so I let go first. With the door open, we faced each other.
“I know I messed up before. I can apologize a thousand times, ten thousand times, but all I want is a chance to make amends.” Neil’s expression softened a bit when he saw me let go.
“That’s all in the past; can we not bring it up? I already have a boyfriend.” I felt drained.
Neil’s expression changed instantly. His somewhat relaxed face turned tense again upon hearing my words.
I asked him, “What about Bonnie? Scarlett? One was your fiancée, and the other was your rumored girlfriend. Have you ever thought about their feelings?” “No.” Neil’s answer was firm, without any hesitation, even though both women loved him.
A long time ago, Stella warned me: never expect any decency from Neil.
I thought she didn’t understand Neil at the time. But she was right.
A man who is at the peak of his career is definitely not a good person.
“Neil, we’re not right for each other. Please, can we just stop this?” I realized that being sarcastic was useless, so I softened my tone and pleaded with -him.
Neil’s eyes were filled with hurt. He tried to touch my face but stopped after his fingers trembled, “I wish I could, but I cant. I once told you that I would never give up on you.”
Hearing his words, I felt desperate.
I know him too well. As long as Neil doesn’t want to let go, I wont be able to escape.
I fell into the mess | had struggled so hard to leave.
Since words won’t work, I would just stay silent, and tried to leave.
I had barely taken two steps when Neil grabbed me from behind. He buried his head in my neck, as if begging. “Can you give me one fast chance? You’ve tolerated me for ten years. Can’t you give me a little more time?”
“Let go of me.” I felt a pang in my heart, but I regained my composure the next second.
“I can’t let go. If I do, you’ll drift further and further away from me. When we first divorced, I thought you were just mad at me and that you would come back to me after a while. It wasn’t until our child passed away, until you released those recordings, until you left the country without a word, that I realized I was really losing you.” Neil’s voice was filled with regret.
I forced myself to ignore his words and tried to break free from his hold.
Facing my silence and struggle, Neil eventually let go.
I didn’t look back at him; I just walked quickly into the house, slammed the door shut behind me, and locked it.
I didn’t know if Neil had left. I turned on all the lights and ran up to the balcony of my bedroom on the second floor. From there, I could see the front gate. There was no sign of Neil outside the gate. He must have left.
I felt a bit relieved I must admit, when Neil held me and said those words, my emotions were stirred.
Then Russel called
“Are you asleep? I just got home” His gentle voice came through.
I finally calmed down, “I was about to go to sleep. What about you? Why aren’t you sleeping after getting home?”
“I miss you; I wanted to hear your voice.” Russel’s love talk was so straightforward, “Don’t you miss me?”
“We’ve only been apart for a short time, and you…”I responded shyly
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In a whirlwind of thoughts, I fell into a deep sleep. I had a long dream. and led me in a different direction
But in the middle of our sprint. Neil popped up again, blocking out wi
When i woke up, my head was pounding like a drum, and my body temperature Turned out, I had a fever
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I grabbed my car keys, thinking I’d drive myself to the hospital but before i could e almost passed out
I had no choice but to crawl back to my room and make a call for help
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