I felt like a loud alarm sounded inside my head.
It awfully rang against my already painful brain. However, I just realized that it was an actual alarm clock when I opened my eyes. Specifically, it was an alarm clock that I hadn’t seen before for years. I scanned my surroundings instantly while sitting up in bed.
I was in the bedroom of my family’s house. It was the place where I lived until my coming of age and all of them were still the same.
‘What’s going on here? Were those things about the Moon goddess a dream or real?‘ I thought to myself.
I instantly ran towards the mirror after jumping out of bed. When I moved, I could sense the difference here. I felt shorter and lighter. Moreover, I felt strange because it seemed I had no muscles. I felt empty right now.
I noticed that I was younger than before as I saw my reflection. It could be seen from my plumper cheeks and rounder eyes. The stress wrinkles due to the mistreatment had completely vanished and almost looked stunning.
‘Is that me?‘ I was stunned.
I put my attention on changing myself to suit Benjamin that I never knew I’m so beautiful before.
At this moment, I knew what was missing here: my wolf.
I recalled this companionship feeling that I felt after my coming of age. It was like something within you with its emotions and needs. However, this body didn’t feel that. It was more likely empty and there was not a slight heartache.
She hadn’t become a prey of the mate bond, but I was her now–a soul of twenty–four years old who was resided in a small girl.
I finally saw the date as I turned to the left where I put my daily calendar. I got stomachache instantly. It turned out that I was fourteen now and the Goddess had delivered me back to ten years backwards, ‘Is this what she said the right moment? What is the point with my future by sending me back a decade backwards?‘
Suddenly, I heard an exclaim from downstairs, “Winona!”
I couldn’t help but see the memories flash of Zoey in my mind which made me shiver, ‘Since when did she call me like that? This is impossible.”
Zoey and I hadn’t met yet. So, I frowned while contemplating for a few moments later. I tried to hear the voice clearly, but it suddenly slapped me. I knew this person.
I was fourteen now. How could I hadn’t realized this?
In the next second, I threw myself outside the door and ran down the stairs very quickly without worrying about my clumsiness. I had to see and made sure whether it was real or not because this was really prominent. However, when I arrived at the kitchen, I couldn’t contain my emotions
anymore. It felt like ages yet I could still remember clearly this loss each day.
“Winona?” she asked me while taking me in her embrace. I was weeping so hard.
“Mama!” Just like that, I dropped myself into her warm arms and cried myself into her chest.
It wasn’t a dream at all. My mother was here. I felt really grateful now for the whole ordeal with the Goddess. I would definitely agree on this as soon as possible if I knew that I could see my mother again.
“What’s wrong, Winona? Are you in pain?” she asked me.
the contrary. I felt much contented now.
I shook my head while staring at her confused and concerned face. I was currently at the downstairs kitchen and dropped myself at my mother. She then stared at the other direction. There was a bunch of people in this room and I just noticed it. All of them looked back at my mother with confused feeling as well. I forgot that we used to have attendants because we were a prestigious Beta household.
“It is not like you at all. Tell me. What is it?” my mother ran her gentle fingers on my long hair while asking.
“You are still in your pyjamas while crying to me. You never did that before. Do you feel sick?” she asked me one more
I shook my head again as well. My mother’s words were true. I had always prepared myself as Luna one day. So, I never expressed my negative emotions and was constantly
organized as well as prepared. Yet, right now, I was in her arms crying like a mess while still wearing my pink pyjamas.
“No, I am not. I just miss you so much,” I answered while still weeping.
I was cautious with my words now because I couldn’t explain the truth to her. Moreover, I didn’t want my mother to think that I was mad or something. That was why lying was necessary and better for now.
“Winona, you saw me yesterday. I kissed you before you went to bed…” she wondered.
“I know. But, you were busy with the hospital’s stuff. I haven’t seen you often,” I tried to make sense.
My mother pulled away from my hug and scanned my face cautiously. Her pretty blue eyes roamed and inspected me as if she examined her patients, “I think you better stay home today. I will tell one of my nurses to check up on you at midday.”
“No!” I instantly exclaimed a little bit louder.
Afterwards, I cleared my throat and talked again calmly, “I am really okay. Pardon me for making you worry.”
I clasped my hands together and got up on my feet while smiling warmly at her. This was the usual behaviour of mine around her: polite and respectful.
I had to search what I must do in changing my future. So, I couldn’t just stay at home. I didn’t really remember about my high school years back then. But, I would keep an eye on it. There must be a reason why I was sending back to this exact
Meanwhile, my mother took a deep breath while thinking for a
moment. She then nodded her head reluctantly, “Alright then. You are going to be late. You better get ready now.”
My mother then turned to the attendant again while saying, “Lily, could you help preparing Winona for her school?”
This name sounded familiar to me. Afterwards, a young cute girl with short bob hair moved forward and led me upstairs. She must be younger than when I died.
“Please, Miss,” Lily said while smiling politely to me.
Her voice suddenly made me remember her. She was with us until I was around eighteen. Lily worked for our family for about seven years at her time of departure. She left probably because she had found her mate during my coming–of–age
I followed Lily to the upstairs where my room resided. I
watched her figure as she picked out some clothes and put them on my bed neatly. It was the rule for me back then and I never protested with any of this, with anything that had been chosen for me.
I stared at my clothes blankly. Lily chose a bright frilly dress which actually made me cringe, ‘Did I really often use this kind of clothes back then? I’d prefer to die again instead of wearing this.‘
I started to see all of my clothes in the wardrobe as I walked straight past her. The majority was the same: cute girly clothes which were more suitable for a nine years old girl.
Since everyone expected me to be cute and stunning from the beginning, I now knew that it was nothing like dressing a doll.
I kept scanning my wardrobe until I finally found formal clothes. Everything seemed to be too much fancy to be worn at school but this. I managed to find the one that was more into casual yet smart. I pulled out that simple black flare dress with no hesitation and started to dress myself.
“Pardon me, Miss?” Lily was confused while asking.
However, I continued to wear this dress and ignored her confusion.
I then replied while signalling over my shoulder, “Lily, you can throw away these all. Don’t you think that I am too old to wear those kinds of clothes? You can donate or throw away any clothes that don’t match to an eighteen–year–old girl.”
On the other hand, Lily was freaked out, but she nodded her head reluctantly.
After that, I was greeted by the driver who took me to school. As a security measure, all the ranked members had driver to school. Meanwhile, the rest of the pack children had to take bus or walk.
I stared at the window silently on my way after putting myself on the backseat. My house was quite near to a lot of
prominent buildings in the town including the school. So, it wasn’t taking long.
I felt strange upon seeing the difference here compared to ten years ahead. This included the atmosphere, not just merely the building.
Maybe it’s because I’m about to meet the people who caused my death in the school.